My new friend.

Just met a new girl call Kelly Chong. She's so freaking pretty wei. She's got eyes that are so huge and cute and she has nice hair too xD she totally speaks fluent chinese which actually helps me learn and practice my chinese writing and saying more. LOL I know i suck in chinese a lot. I'm just not really used to it. It's cause I don't speal chinese at home, only with my cousins and aunts and uncles. I speak hokkien to my grandparents and I am WORSE in hokkien. I'm like so not like those typical chinese at all. Sad huh? an english educated chinese girl who doesn't really know how to speak or write chinese is still trying to recall her chinese standard one lessons because she kinda forgotten all of it. I used to be so normal in all those chinese speaking and now when someone actually speaks to me deep chinese I'll be like " Huh? wth r u tryin to say wei? can u speak english?" it's kinda embarrassing because i am not christian and i'm buddist and i'm suppose to be really good at it. That's why i'm speaking to Kelly in chinese so that i can actually be better at it next time xD

As a man.

A new start is always frightening. But I truly believe it's love. Trying to be more happy then my painful separation. We should promise eternity and swear on it.
Since you're a man, you wouldn't know even if you die. Since I'm lacking, since I'm foolish, I'm only looking at you. Since you're a man, you wouldn't understand me. You probably just want to be free, you probably won't be able to change, because you're a man.
You're next to me but why does my heart feel empty? Why is it that your words "I Love You" don't sound the same as before? The long waits are getting harder and harder. I think of giving up hundreds of times.
I feel uneasy and can't sleep until you fall asleep. I go crazy when I can't contact you throughout the night. I'm not a woman who expects many things. But I collapse from one of your inattentive words.
I still feel like when we first met. I flutter in front of your smile. But even when these small expressions are nowhere to be found between us. But since you're a man, I still love you.

I'm Free..

Now I guess I'm really over him. I saw him at school and everything came back. But now I think I'm ok now. I'm moving to Puchong soon. I'm really excited. Who knows maybe I'll get another hot guy over there which is better than him? Let's just hope for the best. My new school rocks and my new house is nice too. Hopefully I'll get to meet new friends. And I mean good ones. I'm going to miss my best mates. But I guess it's the only way to set my heart free. But I can still meet up with them. Just not everyday. But I don't mind. New House. New School. New Mom. New Friends. New Family and New Life. + New Love.

The Time's Up.

I've come to my senses lately. I'm over him. I'm ready to move on now. All I know is that he is such a bloody jerk and he's just worthless. He doesn't deserve me at all. Girl power's back people!!

muaxxx


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1. Another chance
2. Love
3. A kiss
4. Friendship
5. To chill
6. A hug
7. A relationship
8. A laugh
9. An apology
10. A chance to be friends
11. A greeting
12. To be best friends
13. To go out
14. To get to know me better
15. My number

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The End..

Well, my boyfriend just broke up with me. I'm really depressed. I get it if he wants to study for PMR. But I'll still like give him space to study and I won't bug him until his exam is over. But he didn't think of how I would've felt. I'm hurt. I'm heartbroken. That's how I feel right now. Now all I really hope is to just get out of this school and move on. I can't face him or even look at him anymore. It's really awkward. He doesn't love me anymore. All those promises he made turned out to be empty ones. All those sweet talk was meaningless. I feel so betrayed. It feels like I hate him, but I don't. I feel that I'm pissed at him for dumping me, but I don't. I miss him so badly. I wish he would come back right by my side. But, no. He won't anymore.
     He chose to move on. While everyone is trying to persuade me to move on and get over him. Telling me he is not worth it and he doesn't deserve me at all. But I'm not even sure if he's not worth it or maybe I'm the one who doesn't deserve him at all. Maybe I'm just not good enough for him. I feel so lonely all of a sudden when I'm so used to have someone by my side. Now, I'm all alone. I see my sister, my dad, and some of my friends, being so in love, and spending time with their lovers really breaks my heart. I'm so fragile. I've always thought that I'm stronger than I look, but right now, I don't feel as strong anymore.
     I feel so weak. I feel left out. Like a nobody. Being with a relationship is not about popularity to me. I'm in a relationship not because I want to be in the group and be popular. I just want to love someone and be loved by someone. But, I've been in 2 relationships and they both ended up badly. But this 2nd relationship, I thought I've found the one for me. I felt all the love he gave me. I love him so much.Now I'm confused. All those love, were those feelings fake too? I don't know.
     My love life is sad. I want to find the one for me. I guess maybe the time isn't right yet. I don't know how am I going to get over him. It won't be easy then. At least I have my friends by my side. But those times that we had together, it's not easy to forget them. Those wonderful times..will be kept as memories which will lie in my heart forever.

Let's just hope I find someone that really cares for me. Who really loves me with true feelings. That could never let me go.

Let's just have the positive side for now. Hopefully..this broken heart in me...would eventually be mend. :)