Time to Love..xD

Good person, you're my first love
The person who taught me love
Never forget you
I remember you
I remember only you

Maybe I'll see you, so I wear the clothes you bought for me
Cut my hair short the way you liked it
To walk the road I walked with you
I walk around the long way, thinking maybe you'll be there
I kept my old phone number
Maybe you'll try to find me again, my house still the same
In my mini-hompy, the songs we used to listen together
Maybe you'll see me, maybe you'll come back

We didn't forget each other yet
We still want each other
We are still loving
Going separate ways
Actually, I want to see you
I miss you like crazy
I wait for you forever
In the end, I wait for you
I stop to wonder
I'm going around in circles

Maybe I'll see you
Maybe your heart will shake at that road
Worrying that my heart will become weak
Worrying that you'll see my bone-skinny state
I avoided the road I walked with you
I walked the long way, thinking you'd be there
I changed my phone number already
I moved houses, thinking I'll think of you
But still unspeakable words leak from my mouth
Maybe I'll see you, maybe you'll come back

Let's start again
I want to say to you
I can't see you nor hear you
But I'm still holding on to you

Getting soaked by the pouring rain
I go to the place where we first met
I feel so pathetic
The warm place is still there in my heart
Can you endure anymore?
I'll endure a little more
But it takes some effort
I loved you too much
I tried my best, but it's impossible

Maybe I'll see you by coincidence
Maybe you'll see me
I wipe my tears, looking at myself in the mirror
Maybe you'll come back

Time to Love People!! xD

I will get lost so you can live better.

I'll back off so you can live
Say it directly
Looking at me
Say it looking into my eyes
Did you just say you wanted to break up?
Did you want to end it with me?
I know you probably got a lady
I know you probably got sick of me
Even though the tears are rushing towards me.

I'll back off so you can live
That's all I can say
I'll forget you so you can live better
So that you would be happy without me
The love you tossed away
You can take it
Don't leave even a trace behind and take it all
Don't even say you're sorry

Sorry my sweety
Your lips that told me you're going to leave
Why does it give me a reason to be angry today?
I need to stop you
The words don't go out
And you are already moving far apart

I know you will forget me
I know I will really hate you
Even though you know everything

You were the reason I lived
You were all I wanted
It was me who only looked at you
Why are you leaving?
Why are you tossing me away?
If you were going to be like this
Why did you love me in the first place?

Do you happen to remember that day?
That day when we first met
I still remember it
The promise you made to me
That you will only care for me
That you will only protect me
That you will only love me
I believed your lies
I believed it

Did you really love me?
Hope you all like it xD

I'm feeling so tired nowadays. Christmas is coming but i'm not that excited as i used to be. last time i'll be like ohh christmas is coming!! so excited!! but now i'm just like...uh-huh..itz coming so wht? dont care. at least now my relationship with him is better then it used to be...there's 14 days left b4 skool starts...i'm so excited...i missed my frens so much xD can't wait to see them all :)

i'm so bored today. all i did was play a game...fb-ing...download some songs..watch new moon and jk hitz..and skyped with my fren.and other than tht, i chat with him on msn. so far tht's all....hols can be so boring when you're at home the whole time xD

This pic is at Genting Highlands with my sis, Samm and my couz Janet :)

What I'm feeling

I've been feeling kinda down lately...my relationship with my boyfriend is getting harder and harder...I don't know how to deal with all those risks throwing right at me...I don't know how to avoid it...I just think that he doesn't understand me good enough...No one does..He's always icy cold and I don't know what to do about it..and my best friend is now my "friend". She hates me a lot...I don't know what to do about it...my feel as if my life is now thrown in a deep hole and couldn't find a way to get out from that scary hole..and I have to go to my ex-boyfriend to ask him for advice because he knows my current boyfriend best...they're best friends..I just don't wanna repeat that same mistake I did before...It hurts...I've been crying for so long because of this shit..I just don't know what to do now...Even though my sis is trying to help but she really isn't helping that much..and now she's putting hairpins and clips all over my hair because she's afraid to go downstairs to apologize to my dad..She's getting annoying now!! psshhttt...I wanna be a different person now...I want my boyfriend to be happy but I don't know how or even what to do!! It's like we don't understand each other at all...I'm depressed about this and I want to change this emo-ness to happiness.